Hitting the bottom

Greetings.

Okay.how to start.

Approaching the midsem presentation for final year project in two weeks. As u may concern, I'm majoring in mechanical engineering which most of the software involves design software such as SolidWork, AutoCad, Ansys, Catia and many more. But here I am, trying to learn MatLab from zero which really testing my limit.

How am i??

I love to explore first. but I really am running out of time to explore without the guide. Watching video from youtube really help but where am I supposed to ask something I don't really understand??
I must try my best ( yeah, i'm brainwash myself )..

Trying to stay as positive as I can.

Because, let face it, things is getting harder. 

najwa.

the journey

Greetings.

Approaching the end of undergraduate courses, a lot of decision making process occurred. Feels like big girl already. :)

After I finish my study, I come down to three things that I believe I can manage to continue. First will always be my mother. After living alone far from family (yup,just pahang!haha), you tend to come back home for good. And with my mother getting older, i believe its a wise decision to stay close and care for her. Then come the decision making process either I want to work or taking a gap year before continue doing what I want to do.But both process is obviously will happen at Kedah or the north part. To go beyond the region is not even in options.

Then, another options happen. To continue study or just stop at the moment. I know, once I stop, maybe thats it. No more postgraduate study. InsyaAllah if there is rezeki, I'll continue to further my study. But to leave my mother alone, again is not the most likeable choice.

At the end of the day, all I want is for me to success and make my mother proud enough. No matter what the decision I make, my mother is always my top priority.

random.

Can't stop

Greetings.

Last post was in November. To just say let start over is absurd. Because it has been 3 months since I turn to this page again.What am I up to? Nothing. Just because. I don't know what to say. I turn to this page every now and then, but after a few words, I just leave it.

Let start over.

I learn that in life there always a consequences. From what we say, what we do or even from what we don't talk about. And nowadays, social media has been a very great medium to cause a stir in community.
But my intention for this blog is to spread positivity which I see is lacking in malaysian society. People really love to talk behind others but rarely brave enough to discuss it with the victim. Talking about hearing from both side here.

I should start writing back. Because lately, all my worries and troubles seem to stop me from doing something. And I should really focus.


Random.

 

deep thinking

For the past weeks, I have been thinking a lot. About everything and nothing. As I'm approaching the end of my studying in just 8 months, future seems not far anymore. However, what I'm going to do seem really unclear. or it just me who not deciding yet?

I wish i can go travel and set up my own business label. or just staying home and hope for money to fall from tree? wish i believe will never happen. sometimes I want to further my study and become lecturer which it seem perfectly fine for me. But I want to work in the industry for a few years before settle for something permanent. The thrilling feeling. Not just a safe option.

on the other side, I want to take a gap year and start something for my happiness? maybe a small business? or maybe helping my mom at home? for the past 3 years and to date, studying has been the very first priority. I have been searching about what I'm going to do after studying. And here is the list ;

1. Travelling ; I have been seriously saving money for this activity. regardless where, I want to see the other side of the world.

2. Reading ; some books I have now, have not yet touched. i should really start reading some.

3. Room decorations ; survey have been done.yes i know it still early. haha. I'm just excited. like really. haha ;)

4. Small business project ; i have google-ing, pinterest-ing, and many more for the suitable product that i can sell for the moment.

here just a list for the time being.

but for now, let just focus on the final year project, shall I?

maybe a new year resolution perhaps?

till then,

najwashariff