Hitting the bottom

Greetings.

Okay.how to start.

Approaching the midsem presentation for final year project in two weeks. As u may concern, I'm majoring in mechanical engineering which most of the software involves design software such as SolidWork, AutoCad, Ansys, Catia and many more. But here I am, trying to learn MatLab from zero which really testing my limit.

How am i??

I love to explore first. but I really am running out of time to explore without the guide. Watching video from youtube really help but where am I supposed to ask something I don't really understand??
I must try my best ( yeah, i'm brainwash myself )..

Trying to stay as positive as I can.

Because, let face it, things is getting harder. 

najwa.

deep thinking

For the past weeks, I have been thinking a lot. About everything and nothing. As I'm approaching the end of my studying in just 8 months, future seems not far anymore. However, what I'm going to do seem really unclear. or it just me who not deciding yet?

I wish i can go travel and set up my own business label. or just staying home and hope for money to fall from tree? wish i believe will never happen. sometimes I want to further my study and become lecturer which it seem perfectly fine for me. But I want to work in the industry for a few years before settle for something permanent. The thrilling feeling. Not just a safe option.

on the other side, I want to take a gap year and start something for my happiness? maybe a small business? or maybe helping my mom at home? for the past 3 years and to date, studying has been the very first priority. I have been searching about what I'm going to do after studying. And here is the list ;

1. Travelling ; I have been seriously saving money for this activity. regardless where, I want to see the other side of the world.

2. Reading ; some books I have now, have not yet touched. i should really start reading some.

3. Room decorations ; survey have been done.yes i know it still early. haha. I'm just excited. like really. haha ;)

4. Small business project ; i have google-ing, pinterest-ing, and many more for the suitable product that i can sell for the moment.

here just a list for the time being.

but for now, let just focus on the final year project, shall I?

maybe a new year resolution perhaps?

till then,

najwashariff

Effort-less

Assalamualaikum

Final year mid presentation is around the corner. And being the super common Malay, nothing is finish at the moment. It hit me really hard. Can I pursue my study abroad with this kind of attitude? How can I compete with others? Thus, it lead to a random rant like this.



Everyone I believe, have experience this kind of attitude. Just like Bruno Mars said, today I don't feel like doing anything (yes,i quote celeb.-.-'). Some people just feel it like a day and get back on track the next day. But i feel it everydayyy and it not even funnyyy. I try to read an inspirational quotes, try to focus my mind but nothing works. The next thing I try is dismiss myself from the laptop but eventually, I fall asleep. So, how?


I think it normal to lost focus. Because basically, a person can only focus for about 45 mins on something and after that, mind need to rest. Having said that, why most classes is in 2 hours? wonder. I try to find my inspiration and stumble upon this one blog. I just need to work hard. Really. The clock is ticking. Another 7 weeks before final. This semester, I need to improve my pointer more.



till then,
Najwashariff